Jumping in the shower
It's moments like these when I can refuel, just be alone, and breathe. Somehow in this moment the cleansing power of hot water cascading down my face erases whatever hardships heavily linger.
Silence. Solitude. Words that carry a very different and deeper meaning these days.
This life requires an excessive amount of communication. I'm constantly explaining WHAT I want, HOW I want things done, WHERE this or that is....this lifestyle is always testing my patience, teaching me how to communicate better, how to deal with my frustrations, and ultimately how to be more independent, because honestly I feel that is where a certain level of happiness lies, for all of us.
It's hard to fully convey just how hard it is to always be explaining things to someone else, but it's exhausting, both emotionally and mentally. Imagine if you had to verbalize the seemingly simplest of things to someone else: how to execute your entire morning routine, from how you like your coffee to how you like your hair washed. And that's just the first few hours of the day.
Side note: for someone with less function than me it's a whole different level. It's crazy hard. Deep breaths. I miss just playing some tunes and jumping in the shower. The quiet beauty that accompanies a cleansing ritual in solitude. (Sigh)
