Hardheaded
I don't even have a clue how to start this blog post. What I do know is that I am not alone in what I am dealing with on a daily basis being a new amputee. That far left image thats a part of this above photo collage, is what I had as my right leg from August 15th, 2018 until January 31st, 2019. Now there is no reason on earth why it should take that long for me to get that diseased limb removed. Are you curious why it took over 5 months to have an amputation I wanted from day one? After it was suggested to me, by a doctor, my doctor, that amputation was the best way to go for my health and survival? Insurance stupidity and healthcare "professional" incompetence. I won't bore you with the plethora of bullshit I had to deal with concerning hoops the insurance idiots DEMANDED I jump through before they approved my surgery....and the ton of medical "professionals" incompetence, but believe me when I tell you that money is what drives the medical profession in the united states of america. NOT healing or helping patients.
Short History
I was in a branch of the united stated military for 9 years and did unspeakably horrible things in the name of united states of american freedoms. I never received a scratch, not even a mosquito bite. I returned home and lost my right leg, below the knee, to diabetes. How's that for karma. To be honest that amputation was my doing. My fault. Totally all me. I was diagnosed with diabetes in 2008, ending a 26 year career as the best cook/chef I have ever known, working all over the world. Diabetes meant I could no longer work because of the effects the diabetes caused my body, vision, strength. Cooking 12 to 14 hour shifts 4 days a week...is no joke. I retired from cooking and ignored my diabetes. For the next FIVE years. Hard headed would be an understatement. I was defiant and extremely stupid. If YOU have diabetes do not ignore your diabetes. I accept the fact my amputation could have been avoided. I didn't care. The amputation was never an issue for me because having the diseased limb attached to my body for 5 months was way worse than any surgery to remove the leg below the knee could possibly ever be, and I was so tired of being on my ass in bed for 5 months.
Waiting
The surgery was successful. I healed in record time. Went home in 3 days time. Was walking unassisted with my new prosthetic in weeks. I thought to myself....."this amputation thing is a cakewalk." What exactly does that mean..... "a cakewalk?" I know I am not alone in the toxic shit I am sinking into on a daily basis and thats why I am writing this blog post. I was fooled into thinking, because of my initial success with the surgery, healing, walking and overall good mental state of mind, that this journey back to "normal" would be a cakewalk. It is anything but that cakewalk. My issue with my recovery is the inability of healthcare professionals to be totally honest with me when it comes to my prospects for my future. I believe all medical professionals should be honest. So here I am now, currently waiting on a prosthetic that fits properly and searching for a prosthetic company with my needs in the forefront of their concerns.
