He is the most wonderful gift
On the 24th of July 2020, we were expecting our grand finale child. For the first time, I was over the due date. I was called to the hospital for a check-up and they decided to induce labor. Happy and excited, we moved into our room. Everything took very long, it felt like forever. I just wanted to meet my son. We had a wonderful midwife helping us with everything. My contractions started to be way too painful and the situation was such for me to give up soon. Before the midwife got to her next step and broke my water, I felt it break itself. A doctor is called and just minutes later all the doors open for an emergency C-section. I woke up later with the words: -He is going to the academic hospital. He needs hypothermia treatment.
I was confused, I had just opened my eyes and was in horrible pain. I knew with that sentence something had happened to his brain. I broke down. He had a severe lack of oxygen and was ripped off of my body with HIE grade 3. I got to see him a short while before he was rushed into the helicopter to the other hospital. My brain was spinning, my whole body in pain and my heart so broken. I was left behind for my own health and care.
Over the following days, I was informed my uterus ruptured irregularly. It ruptured from the cervix to the top of the uterus. Our son was lying outside my uterus next to my ribs. I was cut open from hip to hip so they had room to get him out. We are lucky to both be alive. Managing life soon became a struggle.
Today our gorgeous son Wille is diagnosed with unspecified cerebral palsy. He is the happiest boy I have ever met. He struggles every day to overcome his road bumps, always with a smile on his face. I never imagined myself as a mother who could handle this, but somehow I really manage.
Wille was, according to the doctor, unlikely to live through his first hours. He is very much alive. We use all our power to help him move forward in life. He is truly a superhero
I just want to say to other families: - Believe in yourself, you can do this - It´s ok to not be ok. All feelings have the right to exist - Life will get easier even if you don't believe it for the moment. - YOU ROCK THIS
